A few years ago, I yearned to walk in the power of God.. I have a very strong desire to have the Lord’s working power flow through my hands.. I pray all the time, Lord using me as a willing servant. . I tried to figure out who God is from a logical sense. I kept asking Him,  “Why is this so tiring? Why doesn’t  your power seem to flow through me like it flows through others…I need a vacation,

After a few years, I finally asked the Lord, “What am I doing wrong?”

 

I received a scripture while in prayer:  John 15:5:8 NKJ.

 

I am the vine, you are the branches. HE who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing, If anyone does not abide in Me, he is cast out as a branch and is withered; and they gather them and throw them into the file, and they are burned.

 

If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, you will ask what you desire, and it shall be done for you. By  this my Father is glorified, that you bear much fruit; so you will be my disciples. 

 

Lesson learned: I learned to surrender everything to the Lord and I mean everything because sometimes when you are seeking the Lord everything around you falls apart and instead of being stuck and fearful I decided to surrender everything I couldn’t control.. What was I trying to control anyway? I prayed and asked the Lord to strip me of everything that wasn’t of Him.  

 

WOW! I felt like the top  layer of my skin was pulled off, I was so vulnerable, so raw, so undone, words can’t describe the feeling. This feeling of walking on my tippy toes, God is holding up  my hands and pulling me to move forward. 

The feeling is scary, exciting, and every emotion is gone, just me and Jesus— just being in one accord with Him. So wonderful, so peaceful.

 

I got it. I finally got it. Being in one accord with the Holy Spirit, just you and Jesus and the holy spirit flowing. My spiritual gifts started flowing and the Lord used me to heal people and speak life into their situations, My entire life changed everything about my life changed. The way I think, the way I eat, the way I dress. 

 

So if you are looking for a life changing event. Use John 15:5-8 to change your mind and way of thinking. 

 

And there will be a part 2 to the John 15 chapter because there are times when I am feeling so unloved. I care for everyone else but they abuse me and I have to remember that I am not rejected but I am loved.

 

In Jesus, name amen. Be blessed.