So babies are supposed to be made and raised in Love but What if this isn’t the truth for you? Or you feel like this isn’t the truth for you because of all your hard experiences in life. 

 

This often times leaves you to think no one loves you (not a self-pity thing), the self realization of the fact that there isn’t a person who supports you financially, emotionally or spiritually. What are you supposed to do? I had to go through this in life. 

 

I had no friends or couldn’t keep them or make them because of trust issues, I found that working hard and long hours helped but wasn’t the solution and drinking only gave me a brief break from my emotional heart pain of feeling alone and rejected!

 

I searched and practiced other religions and oddly enough I was told you can’t use this religion as your source of peace and I thought to myself then why am I worshipping this God (I had no idea who Christ was) I need a God who can give me peace. I became super depressed and suicidal and I said to myself isn’t there a God who can give me peace? Where is He?  If not I am hopeless and why should I stay alive? I’m done. Ready to end this. 

 

I felt like this my whole life, no peace, no hope full of bitterness. Those were my very dark days. 

 

I eventually went to church in my last ditch efforts to stay alive, give my peace and say good bye. 

 

I can tell you in this desperate situation the Lord— the Lord God of Elijah came and set me free. He showed me his love. Showed me that I didn’t have to live like that. That every thing I thought was a lie. He told me to read His word, pray His word, sing His word, walk in His word and hold onto the love He offered me. I told Him show me and he gave me dreams of my string in the palm of His hand. 

 

This life has been a journey and after many years of learning Gods love I was finally able to accept my real fathers love. I was able to see Him as a neighbor instead of an enemy. I would hear that scripture. Love your enemy as yourself; guess what? if your dad was your neighbor— by Gods grace and commandments you would love him and forgive him because He was your annoying neighbor who doesn’t know the Lord. (My line of thinking). 

 

In conclusion, don’t give into negative thinking or beliefs— you owe it to yourself to read the Bible and change your thinking to a better life. Have faith where there appears  to be no faith— Pray and ask the Lord to help you to change. He is more than willing to help. 

 

My the Lord bless you this day and let His light shine upon you always. 

 

Doubting Thomas  in the Bible said, “unless I see those nail marks in his hands m, the The Lords hand, I will not believe it!

 

John 20:24-29

 

That very comment said it all— Jesus just had to see Him to finish the doubt Thomas’ life. 

 

Lord today I pray that your wonderful new beautiful love will fall upon everyone who reads this  post — that they would experience your Love in ways we couldn’t possibly begin to imagine. In Jesus name amen!